Day 4 of the shred

I got 3 consecutive workouts done and I feel good about.

I've been so slow at work, just sitting around. I got more books from the library and feel like at least I'll be able to read those.

I came home at lunch to do day 4 of the Shred. I always feel so good afterwards, I don't know why I can't just make it a habit.

I had lunch at home too. Still trying to save money so I can get my driveway done. I want a fence more than the driveway, but can't get a fence until my driveway is leveled correctly.

Tonight is church and I'm debating on whether or not to take Katie. She's sick today though, so I probably won't go until next week. I really want her to be raised in church. I really want her to know and believe in Jesus Christ.

consistency

This morning I had to drag myself to do the Jillian DVD. Why can't I be consistent? It's always so much warmer under the blankets, and yet, after I work out, I do feel so much better. I would rather watch t.v., check my mail--almost anything, except for what's good for me.

I got through day 3 of the shred today. 7 more for level one, then I'll start level 2. I tried level 2 once--it's really rough!

This morning I'm making oatmeal and trying to eat a little better. I've been eating fast food a lot since I came back from South Carolina. Mostly from convenience because I haven't been grocery shopping.

Friday I have Bunco with some friends from my old job. I'm looking forward to playing with them.

I won the lotto on Saturday. I won $1 and bought my coffee with it. I was excited just with the dollar. What would happen if I won the jackpot?

I have a visit at work today, from 4:00-5:00. Other than that, I have nothing going on. It's been such a slow month for me.

I'm trying to save up to get a new driveway for my house. My old one looks so raggedy. Hopefully, I'll be able to get it in another 2 weeks. I'm turning in my mileage checks today. It will be so nice to have one, because right after that, I'll be putting up a fence. Yesterday while I was outside, bringing my groceries into the house, I happened to hear something, looked up, and saw a pitbull growling at me. I tried to pretend I was calm, but I was shaking inside. Katie was in the car asleep. I crept backwards into my car, very slowly, got in, and waited until Heather got home to take Katie. I was terrified he would come back and I didn't want to risk Katie getting attacked. I'm so tired of the neighbors letting their dogs run wild in the neighborhood. I'd like to let Katie outside to play, but the first thing she does is run towards the street, and my blacktop driveway hurts her feet.

My personal blog

This blog is just about me. It's about my daily life, and more of a journal than anything. Today is my first blog, Monday, April 27, 2009.

I am almost 4o. I'm growing everyday, but there is so much of me I want to change.

Here I will write prayer requests, things that amuse me, things I want to change about myself, things I like about myself, and just daily thoughts.

I also have a list of books I've read. Any listed are ones I've enjoyed. If I don't enjoy them, I don't finish them. I listen to audio books because I drive for a living and audio books make the ride enjoyable for me.

I'm overweight by about 30 lbs. That is one thing I want to change. I'm doing Jillian's 30 Day Shred again. I did it last month and lost about 2 inches, but when I came back from South Carolina, I never started again. I love Jillian from the Biggest Loser. Yesterday was my first day doing the Shred again. I really like that it's only 20 minutes, but it kills me!

Another thing is that summer is coming and I bite my cuticles to much that my fingers are destroyed and when I go swimming and they get wet from the water, they look disgusting and deformed. I would like to change that too, but I've been a lifelong nail biter. After my husband died, I started with the cuticle picking. It's a horrible, horrible habit and it's made me ashamed to even show my hands.

My relationship with God is almost non-existent now and I've noticed the change in my family because of it. That's another thing I want to change. I want to get back to church and stop making excuses and feeling sorry for myself, because in church is where I'm happiest.